This is beyond hard for you. I know EXACTLY how you feel and an 18th is such a milestone too. I’m so familiar with the emotions you will be feeling right now and it sucks. There are no words to make it better sadly. I hope that your job, although incredibly demanding, gives you some kind of distraction from what’s going on for your daughter. We have thought about just going down there and waving through the window but we decided that actually she would probably be embarrassed and maybe more upset than if we didn’t. I hope that you find a way to make it special. Sending you much love, I know what a lonely and painful journey this is. xx

Thanks Tracey. I know that I really need to cut myself some slack. I’ve managed to get dressed, showered and put make-up on every day so I reckon that’s to be celebrated!

You could really do without internet glitches at a time like this! I’m doing the stopping and starting things too, can’t focus on anything for very long. But I think it’s normal, so I’m gold anyway! Hope you’re all doing okay. xx

I hope it changes too Susan but in the meantime, I’m so grateful for our garden. We do have a gardener who continues to come, I couldn’t take any credit for this! xx

I like your style – pretending you’re doing work! I reckon there are a lot of people around the country using the same trick 😉

Thank you so much for your encouragement, I’m glad that you enjoy reading them; I certainly enjoy writing them! I definitely think we need to wait and watch what is happening in other countries before any big decisions are made. Hope you’re doing okay.