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In case anyone has been living under a rock lately, it’s ‘back to school’ week here in the UK. School ended abruptly six months ago for all children (bar those of key workers) and we’ve been living in a strange land of change and uncertainty, ever since.

Thankfully (I would have been beating down the door if it were not so), all schools are attempting to open under strict Coronavirus rules – bubbles, staggered start times and a face mask in every pocket.

The strange thing for me this year, is that I have only one child returning to school. Said year 11 child is a very independent learner, who quite frankly is streets ahead of me in the intelligence stakes which kind of makes me ‘surplus to requirements’. Something else I’m not used to.

School Mum Lesson Number One

I first became a school mum sixteen years ago. Actually it wasn’t quite sixteen year ago because in those days, children started school the term before they turned five, meaning that my eldest didn’t start school until the summer term. My biggest concern then, was that starting two terms behind many of her peers, she would be at a disadvantage. Of course she wasn’t.

A little over one year later and I was back at the school gates, this time with a child who continued to plead every day for a whole year, for me not to leave her. My biggest worry then, was that she would never learn to love school; that one day she would refuse to go and I would be powerless to make her. Of course she didn’t.

School doesn’t always go according to plan but the majority of things I once feared (and I remember having sleepless nights over various issues during their time in school) never happened. Lesson number one right there – there’s zero point in stressing over things that have yet to even happen!

Unexpected Happenings

Other unexpected things, did of course happen. Many of you will know that my eldest ended up leaving school part-way through year 11, due to mental health challenges. I never once imagined, back in 2005, that this would happen to the girl who skipped into school all those years ago, throwing herself into learning with gusto.

My second born, by contrast, would always have preferred to be at home with mummy (yes, right through primary school and beyond). Despite the sudden end to her school years just a few months ago, she is now the proud owner of three very good grades at A level and is spending the year thinking about what she wants to do next.

We Really Aren’t in Control!

Children, and life, surprise us don’t they? I have no idea what the next couple of years will bring for any of us. I don’t know if my son will get to take his GCSEs next summer (something that we would never have even questioned in the past) or if he will go on to do A levels. I’m not sure what will happen to my eldest, or where she will live, when her residential therapy programme comes to an end next February. I don’t know if my middle one will get to spend any time of her gap year abroad.

Uncertainty is so hard for us mere mortals who have plans and expectations. I think 2020 has been a great way for God to remind some of us that despite our best efforts, we really aren’t in control!

My children have become pretty good at navigating the unknown (we can learn a lot from our kids) over the years. Circumstances have meant that they’ve had to this year, but Gen Z kids are well practiced at it – life moves so fast these days! One of them has always found change and uncertainty a little trickier than the others, but we are learning to navigate it together and I am confident that we will both be better people for it.

Do you deal with change and uncertainty well? How have you and your children found ‘back to school’ this week?

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5 COMMENTS

  • This is a very thought provoking post, thank you! I am guilty of worrying and stressing about the smallest things. I actually found on the whole that lockdown was a less stressful time for me. I now feel like I’m running on stress and adrenaline as life gets back to ‘normal’. But I wasn’t anxious about the return to school from a coronavirus point of view. I’m glad the kids are back and so are they. Who know what the coming months will bring though. We definitely can’t assume anything will go to plan any more.

    • Suzanne

      I think we all have a tendency to allow our minds to wander into the realms of ‘could happen’. I think it’s fear related isn’t it? Totally agree that full lockdown was less stressful in so many ways.

  • Gail

    Our kids have been back at school for a few weeks here now, and things seem to have gone quite smoothly – although there are new arrangements to get used to, and the difficulty of the normal back-to-school bugs starting to circulate – all making things a bit more complicated in the Covid era. That’s such a good point about not stressing over things that might, or might not happen in the future. I am guilty of doing that and I admit I find all the uncertainty just now a bit difficult. Thanks for this Suzanne. xx

    • Suzanne

      I think there’s going to be a problem when the usual winter bugs start coming out in full force. The uncertainty is difficult. It’s going to take some adjusting and giving ourselves a talking to every now and again I think! xx

  • How do you/your son feel about the new timings for GCSE’s? My daughter is relieved to now know that A’levels are going ahead but mildly irritated that they will lose some of their summer but I presume the Universities will have to postpone entry dates as a result anyway. Then there’s the reduction in the syllabus which personally I think is fair enough although difficult to really get right in terms of what bits to take out. Will be interesting to see how the rest of this terms evolves. What’s your. middle up to? Is she managing to enjoy some of her gap year? She must be relieved not to be locked up at Uni?

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